Consistenly "HIGH"

The weekend here in Portland was absolutely gorgeous! The weather was perfect and there was no rain. We went down to the farmers market on Saturday and it was SO much fun as I really love organic local food. The produce was all absolutely beautiful. The leaves are still the most brilliant shades of orange and red and they had a wonderful instrumental band play that Tae just really enjoyed. Today we went and explored Lake Oswego and how absolutely beautiful. We went to the Science of Mind church here and the guitarist that was playing was saying how Obamas win is giving much hope and joy to even the Indians and Pakistanis he works with overseas and who would have thought that we would live to see a black president in our lifetime but of course...EVERYTHING is possible. It was a great reminder and I am thoroughly enjoying and appreciating life daily in the moment as I have never done before. To consistently be in bliss...is it boring? NO WAY! As Beckwith spoke about...you will begin to experience and unfoldment of life and levels of experience you never knew existed. I have struggled with rage and my temper for years. I got it from my father of course! ;-) But I have learned to take 100% response-ability for my life and i am happy to say that i have become master of the rage that would enter into me and spew forth from my mouth like what felt to be a demon. (sorry to sound freakish, but this is how the intensity was!) And so I am a miracle. And I am constantly grateful, knowing that everything is as it should be. forever expanding and growing. All is well in my life.

Fall is STUNNING in Oregon!

So the first few days here were non stop rain, and I thought..."oh, this is what they talk about in Seattle always being wet." This is the exact opposite of Denver that has the most days of sunshine out of any other state. Even so, its always so cozy being inside in front of a fireplace with a hot chocolate! Well, yesterday everything cleared up and its another day of clear skys and man...it is BEAUTIFUL here. So lush and green with all the changing colors of fall. Denver only gets yellows and oranges with the leaves change but the brilliant colors of red here are a sight to behold! It was even warm enough that we went to the park and oh my gosh...the parks here in Vancouver are HUGE. The playset structure was 5 times that of anything I'm used to in Denver. So we had a delightful day as usual as it's been the routine here to get Tae out and about during the day. Life is blissful when you allow yourself to live blissfully and not be dominated by illusions of worry and not. I am grateful.

Another Place on the Water!

After being in a luxury glass condo skyrise in Long Beach CA, we have settled in this beautiful 2 bedroom condo in Vancouver WA that overlooks the Columbus River. It feels like I've just walked into a Pottery Barn catalog. I love being able to travel to different places. When you put yourself out of your comfort zone and into a new place, it forces you to discover and explore and reinvigorates youth in my opinion. It keeps you from growing stale and keeps you loving and living life. And I am SO grateful to be experiencing freedom. to be living life from a creative standpoint.

Travelling to Portland!

So we made a last minute decision to leave the warmth and sunshine of beautiful California to go to the green lands of Portland. We stopped a day off in San Francisco to visit family and it was so joyful to get to hang out with my niece and nephews. We took a Ferry to the Pier and Tae had the most fun I'd ever seen him have with other kids. We all had a ball!

The Great Mystery Trumps Your History

This was the title of the topic last Sunday by Michael Beckwith. In short, I am free today from the bondage of my past. Growing up with immigrant parents whose sole purpose was to ensure our survival, I was surrounded by thoughts of scarcity, insecurity, worry and fear. Not to say that this was the plight of all immigrant children but this was my experience. I'm a smart gal and I knew on an intellectual level the negative emotions that I felt entrapped by but I could not overcome them no matter what I tried. And I tried EVERYTHING. Today is a different story. I am filled with the most content security, living my bliss daily, carrying joy and happiness with me NOW in every moment, so that as I move forward in life expressing my talents and working toward my goals, the attainment of those goals will simply mean their physical manifestation and not an achievement of happiness, for I finally understand that if one is not happy now, they are not going to be happy when they get the "illusion" of what they think will bring them happiness.